Today is my 2 year craniversay. It seems weird to focus on this day, but it was a day that changed my life forever. I don't celebrate it. I don't expect a cake or cards, but it is a day that I choose to stop and remember where I have been and what I have overcome. I tried really hard to do that today, but I couldn't focus on me today. Today, my thoughts only went to my dad. His cancer is back and again, he will begin treatment to fight this horrific disease. It took me a few days to digest this information......obviously it wasn't the news we wanted to hear, but it is his reality and now we must deal with it.
So, as I have been trying to deal with this news, I began to think of my dad and what he means to me. I have always been and always will be a daddy's girl. I talk to my dad on a daily basis and if I don't, the day just doesn't seem right. I turn to my dad for everything. I have always needed him. From relationship advice, to help with my car, to absolutely everything.....I turn to him. I never do anything without asking my dad and making sure it is ok with him or that he would approve. I remember after I married Doug, we wanted to go away for a weekend and I told him I had to call and ask my dad! He was laughing so hard! He said, "Kim, we are married! You don't have to ask your dad anymore!" He was right, but it is all I had ever known and it just felt like that was what I was supposed to do....it felt like the right thing to do. I am loved by my dad and he lets me know that every day. I am one lucky girl.
Now, as I sit here, worrying about my dad and this recent news, I begin to think about my other Dad......God, my Father. You see, I am his child too. Just like my dad, I talk to Him every day and I turn to Him for everything. I need Him too.....from advice, to help, to absolutely everything. I never do anything without asking Him for help or guidance. So, tonight I turn to Him in prayer and ask Him to be with my dad. I ask him to help my dad get through this next round of treatment and for all of us to be the best caregivers that we can be. Why do I turn to Him? When it comes to my faith, it is all I have ever known. I turn to Him, because it just feels right. I turn to Him because I know that I am loved by Him and that how I am feeling right now matters to Him.
So, today it is my 2 year craniversary, but I am not focusing on that at all. I am focusing on how I am a daddy's girl.....to my earthly dad and to my Heavenly dad and that makes me one lucky girl.
